The Reasons

Okay so life is good, things happen and they happen for a reason, good or bad. And I guess after being on this planet for 17 years I have finally decided to cope with that statement. I never really wanted to believe it at first, i guess becuase I figured that all the reasons as to why things happened to me were bad reasons. I never thought that there could be a good reason behind any horrible or somewhat horrible event that occurs in life. It honestly just doesnt seem possible. But I have opened my eyes to the reasons behind the things that happen, and most of those reasons good or bad, I guess you could say, "Saved my life"! I know it may seem like I am talking in circles, but to basically sum up my point without going in a circle. The things that happen to us in life are either caused by some reason, whether the reason itself is also good or bad.

I am here to type/update and post something very new. Well new to this day...

I am currently in Oklahoma visiting my family until Wednesday. Yes Oklahoma..its not a bad place, a lot of good parties. But thats beside the point, I am in Oklahoma to spend Christmas with my amazing family, with whom I couldnt make it in this world without. However there are some people that I wish I could see and spend time with on this Christmas holiday, but unfortunatly I am not able to. So to those, I am very sorry and Merry Christmas, I will see you and spend time with you shortly. But to move on...After my last speal and rant about an email I had sent to a close friend of mine. I realized that after rereading that email and then reading the reply he sent me. That my rant/email was of little importance. I mean yeah I expressed how I felt with the way he was treating me, and how it was wrong and how dare he could think that he has the audacity to say what he does to me. But it didnt make me feel any better, so I talked to him about it personally. Only to find out that all the things he had said were said in a jockingly manor. Never did I realize it, but I believed him, for we are in that point of our relationship as good friends to tell each other the truth and believe what one another says. However there are some exceptions along the way, but anyway, things are settled now and he realizes that what he had said truly did bother me, and he apologized for it all. Which honestly was the only thing I really wanted or needed to hear...Therefore all is well...

BUT on a larger scale, HOW IS EVERYONE ELSE DOING?
I hope you all are having an awesome christmas with your family, and if you dont celebrate christmas, like many, I atleast hope you are having a wonderful break.

I little letter to a certain someone, and I hope he reads it carefully:

Hey, whats up with you? Whats your deal? What gives you the audacity to say the things that you do to me?Why do you always have to say shit to me and then next thing act like things are cool and nothing was ever said? You never did this shit before, so what the hell makes you want to do it now? I'd just like to know what you think when or before you say all that you do to me, or if you even think...Grow the fuck up man, I am here to be your friend, not your damn punching bag. And I sure don't appreciate the fact that you obviously have no respect for me as a person, when all I do is respect you. Even after all is said and done. I just don't really understand how this all happened, how we got to this point. And it's not because i'm "stupid" or have no "common sense." It is really sad though but like you say "I don't care." Therefore you probably don't, which is fine, whatever, I'm done.

Hannah